This Beautiful Life



 I’ve been driving in the rain for over 4 hours. It’s not been the best drive of my life and I’ve been on a lot of road trips. I had my worship music blasting and yes I most definitely was singing on the top of my lungs. Why not, it’s just me and Jesus in the car.  I was able to do a lot of thinking too. A lot of life changes happening at once. I believe RJ finally has college direction and he’s thrilled about it. Some other things happened, that I’m not going to share, but it did put fear in me that I have not felt since I moved to NC. I was able to overcome it today on this drive. My mom (Iris) is in rehab and I meet with a lot of people tomorrow to talk about her health and her future. All of this and more swirling around me. I whispered the name above all names- Jesus and He was right there next to me. The simple question came, “ Is it still a beautiful life?” I was quiet. The fear I was facing was causing me to believe I couldn’t keep this new life that I loved so much. I replied, “Can I keep it, this beautiful life? Or do I have to give it up?” His soft reply “ No, this is a gift, why would it be taken away? I will make a way.”   Peace filled the car. He is faithful. Life is a little upside down right now, but God is my steady foundation. These past few months have been the happiest of my life. Nothing extraordinary. It’s every day happiness. It’s every day joy. It’s daily contentment. God can take it and I will still be grateful. I don’t think that is His plan. NC, you have no idea how beautiful of a life you are to me. My home. My church. My son. My job. My friends. My family..The horse. Tacos everywhere. Horchata. Crazy mixed up weather. All of it. This beautiful life is a gift. God is good. 

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